Before I started this long journey called sobriety, I was alone. The shame was mine. Although I had become a Christian, this secret made me feel like a hypocrite.
I prayed to God that I would stop, but I just couldn’t.
Early in 2016, I teamed up with someone who acted as my Accountability Partner. What a pain in the butt he turned out to be. Having been an pill addict himself, he REALLY emphasized the Accountability in Accountability Partner.
Besides just installing Covenant Eyes, an internet filter, he looked up reading for us to do together to give us the framework of how to deal with this addiction. Shortly afterwards, we talked about the spiritual implications.
He forced me to reveal my dirty little secret, and part of that effort became the blog that you are reading today.
Boy, there were times that I really would get pissed at him. These were things I didn’t want to hear.
But in the process, we grew to love each other as Christian brothers. I was given a gift of immeasurable value: truthful words spoken by a faithful friend.
In fact, he has said to me that the biggest compliment I ever gave him was that I finally understood the relationship between David and Jonathan.
Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins. ~1 Peter 4:8
Since then, I have joined several recovery groups. My world has grown by surrounding myself with more right people. They hold me accountable to my recovery. They remind me to get closer and closer to God.
(Some of you reading this blog are part of that “right people”!)
Faithful are the wounds of a friend; profuse are the kisses of an enemy. ~Proverbs 27:6
See someone hurting? Have the courage to speak gentle truth over them. Always with tenderness and covered in prayer.
I know make it a point to talk and pray with others. I am a living proof that such love works.
“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” ~John 13:34-35