There is an old joke that goes something like this…
I find myself waist high in muddy water. I’m disgusted with the situation I am in. To the right of me, a swarm of mosquitos. With all the diseases they carry, no wonder it is considered one of the earth’s deadliest animals. Suddenly, I hear splashing to the left of me. Five poisonous snakes are swimming toward me. Then, from behind, I catch a glimpse of a moving log, or is it? No. It’s an alligator ready to make me his evening meal!
Between fighting off the water, the bugs, the snakes, and the alligator, it is hard to remember that I am here to drain the swamp.
Although, I literally don’t find myself sinking in a swamp, there are times when life has me sinking into an emotional, or spiritual swamp.
Being with a disability, it takes me so much longer to do simple things. Have you ever tried writing an email with your eyeballs? Since I can’t move, my computer is set up to see what I am looking at and helps me type accordingly.
Getting ready for even a doctor’s appointment takes coordination of family and nurses. Just have one person be in a bad mood, and the swamp seems to start to rise.
Oh, no. My urine bag is leaking. Have to get changed and get dressed all over again.
(SPECIAL NOTE: I NEVER am the one in the bad mood. hahaha!)
With the world swirling around me, it is hard not to get angry, frustrated, feeling sorry for myself and depressed.
And to think, I was put here to clean out the swamp.
I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it. ~Romans 7:15-17
I have no control over this swirling swamp that is me. And what was it that I was supposed to do in the first place?
..let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. ~Hebrews 12:1b-2
I let the world get me down. I was paying attention too much on the flesh, of this world. And in doing so, I found myself acting out in ways I never should have.
I concentrated on the bugs, snakes, and man-eaters of life. I should have remember Psalm16:8:
I know the Lord is always with me.
I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.
And what about drowning in the water? Jesus walks on water, and calms the storms.
I am writing this blog reflecting on what I need to do. This was a bad week. I let the swamp get to me. I am writing this tired and exhausted. It’s time that I “Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him..” (Psalm 37:7a)