The humidity was a little lower today, but it has been raining for the last two days.
I need a good laugh. Tired today, and fighting that depression blanket. That feeling that a big heavy blanket is weighing you down and you can’t get it off you. It’s more than just not feeling well.
But then, as the day went on, I started to feel better. It lifted some. But I still feel like crap. Maybe I should have had some caffeine earlier. But if I do that, sometimes the caffeine makes me ill.
But I am not looking forward to a doctor’s appointment tomorrow. I have to get a new pulmonologist. I had to switch because of insurance. What a pain.
I’ll probably have to take antihistamine so that I won’t drool as much and need as much suction. I hope not. The antihistamine makes me so drowsy. Sometimes the trade off of less suctioning isn’t worth it. And I won’t know until it’s too late.
I hope I don’t have to wait long in the waiting room.
These last couple days, life has been a bunch of crappy trade-offs.
And I feel so helpless.
Then, there is Bob.
At least I am not Bob. My friend Bob tripped on the sidewalk and landed face first on the concrete, this Sunday.
Ow, that hurt just hearing about it. (Editor’s note: Due to the prayers of others, Bob is healing up quite nicely.)
What’s going on around here?
And then, there is Las Vegas.
And of course, we are all affected by the news of the Las Vegas shootings.
With bad things happening all around us, it’s no wonder I am feeling depressed.
Looking in the Word:
Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God! ~Psalm 43:11
I waited patiently for the Lord to help me,
and he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the pit of despair,
out of the mud and the mire.
He set my feet on solid ground
and steadied me as I walked along.
He has given me a new song to sing,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see what he has done and be amazed.
They will put their trust in the Lord. ~Psalm 40:1-3
And then, there is Mr. Rogers….
I have been blessed with many “helpers” Friends. Family. Nurses. Doctors. I am not alone.
But more importantly,
So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor. Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. ~1 Peter 5:6-7
I need to constantly tell myself that bad days will come and go, but God will always be with me. And I am loved.