The events of last week are still on my mind. Here, I talk about being sober and not be addicted to porn anymore. And then I really blow it. (See last week’s blog.)
And then, I find myself judging other people this week.
What is wrong with all of us? It is so easy for us Christians to look at the world and say it’s our sinful nature. But I’m afraid that when we answer that question we think about everyone else. How many of us Christians include ourselves in answering that question. I don’t think enough of us do.
“And why worry about a speck in your friend’s eye when you have a log in your own? How can you think of saying to your friend,‘Let me help you get rid of that speck in your eye,’ when you can’t see past the log in your own eye? Hypocrite! First get rid of the log in your own eye; then you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friend’s eye. ~Matthew 7:3-5
It is easy to list what’s wrong with others and with society from my ivory tower of church. Guess what? That tower isn’t even close to white. It never was. It has always been a group of sinners. Technically we am white and pure in the eyes of Christ. But my s#^t still stinks. I am no better than the world outside of the church. The only difference is that I realize I am sick and decided to accept grace. Other than that we’re identical. I’m not any better than those who haven’t. Shhh! Don’t tell the Pharisee in the pew beside you. If there isn’t one there, you might want to look in the mirror.
“So if you are presenting a sacrifice at the altar in the Temple and you suddenly remember that someone has something against you, leave your sacrifice there at the altar. Go and be reconciled to that person. Then come and offer your sacrifice to God ~Matthew 5:23-24
I don’t want to beat up my fellow Christians. I want my fellow Christians to stop beating up the non Christians. Jesus was harsh at times but it was always with the religious leaders. He was always gentle with sinners. Even when making a point with the young rich ruler he was kind. He spoke the truth but didn’t attack the guy. (See Matthew 19:16-22)
But more importantly, I have to keep reminding myself that God has forgiven me over and over and over for my transgressions. (Again, see last week’s blog.) I have been washed by the blood of Jesus. So, why is my demeanor toward people who piss me off so bad? I need to quit judging other people, and forgive them as God has forgiven me.
I try to tell myself that they deserve it… but
… As he was speaking, the teachers of religious law and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in the act of adultery. They put her in front of the crowd.
“Teacher,” they said to Jesus, “this woman was caught in the act of adultery. The law of Moses says to stone her. What do you say?”
They were trying to trap him into saying something they could use against him, but Jesus stooped down and wrote in the dust with his finger. They kept demanding an answer, so he stood up again and said, “All right, but let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone!” …. ~John 8:4-7 (portions)
Forgive me, Lord.