Although I have Muscular Dystrophy, I feel that my most debilitating disability is my porn addiction. It is for that reason that the scripture Luke 5:17-20 really spoke to me.
The scripture starts out by saying: “One day Jesus was teaching, and Pharisees and teachers of the law were sitting there. They had come from every village of Galilee and from Judea and Jerusalem. And the power of the Lord was with Jesus to heal the sick.”
Did you get that? THE POWER OF THE LORD WAS WITH JESUS TO HEAL THE SICK!! Even me. Even though I had given my life to Christ in 2008, I was still ashamed because I felt like a hypocrite for being addicted to porn. I felt like a pervert because I couldn’t stop. This is the illness that made me depressed. This was the illness that gave me low self-esteem. This was the illness that pushed me away from a relationship with God. (Not that God never stopped loving me. I just never felt worthy of his presence.)
Being disabled, it was hard to get closer to Jesus. I was trapped in my own body.
“Some men came carrying a paralyzed man on a mat and tried to take him into the house to lay him before Jesus.”
SOME MEN. If it wasn’t for “some men” who helped me get before Jesus, I wouldn’t be here talking to you today. My friends loved me, prayed for me constantly, They knew where the power to heal me came from, and helped me get to him.
“When they could not find a way to do this because of the crowd, they went up on the roof and lowered him on his mat through the tiles into the middle of the crowd, right in front of Jesus.”
They maneuvered me through every obstacle no matter how messy. They made sure I was right in front of Jesus.
“When Jesus saw their faith, he said, ‘Friend, your sins are forgiven.’”
You notice that Luke said Jesus saw THEIR faith. My friends have faith even when mine runs low.
I pray that whatever your disability is, that you surround yourself with Christian brothers and sisters to hold you up when you are down.