I want to share two songs that have been helpful to me when I start to feel sorry for myself. They are also helpful when all I can see is my mistakes and past pain but can’t seem to see the progress I’ve made. Can you relate?
The first song is Dear Younger Me by Mercyme.
I like these lines:
Do I go deep
And try to change
The choices that you’ll make cuz they’re choices that made me
I don’t know if I’ve thought of my choices as making me until recently. I’ve always thought that the situations I’ve gone through as shaping who I am, especially my disability. Actually, I think when I was a kid, at some point I made my disability my identity.
I don’t see things that way anymore. There is so much more to a person than the package they come in.
The part that reminds me of how God sees me and how much he loves me is near the end.
You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed
I’m holy, set apart for god.
I’m righteous, made right with God.
I am redeemed, Christ died a torturous death to make it possible.
What says love more than dying for someone who deserves to be condemned.
The other song is Mended by Matthew West.
You see your worst mistake
But I see the price I paid
And there’s nothing you could ever do, to lose what grace has won
I have to remind myself that God doesn’t hold my past against me. He sees me through the lens of Jesus’ sacrifice. He sees all of us who believe this way.
I see my child, my beloved
The new creation you’re becoming
You see the scars from when you fell
But I see the stories they will tell
I have the gift of seeing the negative sometimes. If I don’t keep my mind on God all I see is the negative. I have to remember that I am a new creation. But at the same time, I have to give myself grace (He does) because the change is a process.
I think the most important thing to remember is that God uses our stories. No matter how ashamed you are about parts of your past God can use you and your story for His purposes.
Sometimes people think they have to do something grand to be used by God. God uses everyone of us in the small, everyday things.