Have you ever noticed a time when God’s timing was absolutely perfect? God’s timing always is perfect but we don’t always see it. Of course, when things are going your way it’s easy to see His timing. It’s the times when it seems like everything is falling apart that we can’t see it.
This week I had the opportunity to clearly see His timing being perfect. One day I was really tempted to act on my addiction. To act on the unwanted thoughts in my head, my old behavior. I’m not exactly sure what triggered this but I’m sure if I thought about it I’d see it. That’s a different post and getting off track.
Anyway, when I thought I couldn’t take it anymore I received an email from a podcast I listen to about recovery from porn addiction (PornFreeRadio). I immediately opened the email. If I didn’t I would be writing a very different and humiliating post. The email was a video on relapse.
I started watching the 15-minute video. All the garbage in my head started to get quiet, and by the time the video was over those thoughts were gone. This happened because I took the way out promised in 1 Corinthians 10:13.
No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
I don’t think this was things falling apart, but it could have cost me a lot if I didn’t take action to put my thoughts on a different path. Why throw away almost 7 months on momentary pleasure followed by shame?
I’m sharing this moment of my life for two reasons. First, I don’t want to give the impression that after six months I am somehow cured. The struggle is no longer constant but it is still just that, a struggle. If I get complacent or cocky about the progress I’ve made then I’m in danger of relapsing.
Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. – 1 Peter 5:8
The second reason I’m sharing this is for the benefit of other people struggling. And I don’t just mean addicts. It could be someone struggling with changing a behavior or struggling in their spiritual life. I want them to know that it’s a process. Change doesn’t happen overnight. You will have setbacks but that’s okay. What’s important is what you do after the setback. Get up and keep moving forward.
for though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again, – Proverbs 24:16a
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. – Romans 12:2